About Me

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New England, United States
Having been unable to break my silence about being gay or bisexual due to living in a conservative New England community, and being an active Mormon as well as being married to a wonderful woman, I will try to do so here. This is the story of parts my life, beginning when I was a young teenage boy. I have learned that being gay or bisexual can, in ways, be a lonely life. I was not actually alone, but many times it felt like I was. As a boy, I thrilled at the discoveries that I had made about my body and my physical and emotional attractions. I despaired when I realized I couldn't tell anyone. There were times when things didn't end well. There were some sad and traumatic experiences. But, there were also many joyful and wonderful life experiences that I wouldn’t have had if I had given in to discouragement along the way. I believe there is joy in living even with the challenges along the way. Be aware that I have been honest and to some degree explicit in my boyish descriptions of my budding sexual awareness. What I have written is what I felt, thought and experienced at the time. These particular posts are marked with a double star **.

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Lost for Words

I've been away and have missed connecting with those whose blogs I enjoy keeping up with. Recently, I and other readers have noticed that many times there aren't many comments on their posts but I hope the authors  realize that so many people read and don't comment. I don't always comment but I definitely do enjoy their writing and willingness to share their stories and talents.

When I started blogging I got so much support when I wrote things that stimulated a response from gay readers. At some point some of my posts didn't create those responses. Being a gay man who is married to a straight woman, maybe they thought I wasn't gay enough to hold their interest. I realized I needed to write out my feelings whatever the response was. Eventually I got my feelings and story out of its dark hiding place and out where it might help others. Lately I haven't posted not knowing what to say now that I'm beyond that point.

I have continued to follow my old blogger friends that supported me and I have searched out new blogs that I can relate to, 45th Parallel being one of those. Many of my favorites have stopped blogging for many reasons. It is a shame that some stopped due to their blogs being discovered  and being outed before they were really prepared for the resulting maelstrom.



For some fear, shame and despair got the best of them. For those of you who are writing your stories, keep writing, for yourself as well as all those people who need to hear your story, including me....Adon
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